12-24-2008, 04:07 AM
because i have not done my beast at anything for a long time i didnt keep my girl happy i didnt treat my mom or siter well i have not been there for my kids as i should i have and had my priorities all backwards i treated my first girlfriend like shit she wanted to have a family and i wanted to get fucked up and be a rockstar i treated my wife poorly even after she had 2 kids with me i commited adultry with my now soon to be ex girlfriend and i didnt give what she gave me and now i am so messed up i dont know how to fix anything i have alienated my self from my co workers because i can not stop thinking and talking about this girlfriend issue and i have let my job down and tht e people that depend on me i let my gorl controll me and i act as a battered wifw she has flipped a switch and has changed like i dnt know her anymore i dont know guys i am at my end witht his i dont know what to do i think my kids will beb etter off elswhere and feel like i am worth nothing anymore