12-27-2008, 07:27 AM
well folks i have tried and spend coutless hours on suicide prevention hot lines and i have not gotten any resolve i have even tghrown away all the things that remind me of her i must think of her ass dead to me so i dont kill my self of bring harm to others i will have written on mt tombstone simply this i shpuld have could have would have ya see i am in love and i cannot bear the pain in annatural way so i have to deal with it this way but some thing doesnt allow me to forget i dont know what else to do but sit and cry i thought she was the one for me and aftger 8 years i thoiugh we would be together forever if only i tried hardeer and not got so lost in my own world the fuckin train should have taken me out back in 2006 as she lays down on the bed listening to the jagoffs music complaining that she has no time with me i feel like killing her in her sleep but i will not i hope she gets burned that guiltless no consiece having whore of a girl which whom i am in love with......call me fucked either way