Box Needs Help

[🪦 ZombieTom ●]

There's no shame in taking meds to help out depression. I've been taking Paxil for a few years and its the best thing I ever did. I gained weight because of it, but I eat like crap so its my fault as well..You should just see your doctor, don't feel weird about it. They get this alot, esp around Christmas.**Important**What your going through is not that uncommon. A lot of us do, some just care to share, and some can keep it inside. Just know that how you feel now isn't how you'll feel in a week or so. So don't do something bad just because your in a rut.

[🪦 Mutilated ●]

Suicide rates double around the holidays. Don't become a statistic!

[🪦 scream4me ●]

love is a powerfull thing. you dont need to be in a long term to no this. All things will work out for you, keep your head up and listen to your friends and family for guidance. Even though see's your love, theres still more love for life.

[🪦 WHATSINTHEBOX? ●]

thanks for all the kind words i am in total grief all she wanted was to get time with me to kiss hold talk cuddle make out make love but i was to selfish to see that until she told me that she wanted to leave for her freedom but there was an undelying factor another guy whom she has been with intimately while still sleeping in my bed she wouldnt have to have done that if i would have paid her attention and given what a woman needed she lies to my face told me she no longer is in love with me and i cannot accept that i have allowed this to happen she did so much for me and the kids and i did nothing i could have done more to satisfy her needs as a man should what have i done i am in totla darkness and have not been myself at all lately i have become this mass of depression i am no good to anyone not even my kids my job my freinds anything or anyone feel like a worthless piece of shit and i cannot let go of the past it haunts me daily haunts my sleep i have lost over 40 pounds sleep like never while she goes on her merry way spending nights out taking time off work shutting off her phone she is diffrent town there no more goodnight i love you kisses i did this i let this happen i had the love of my life and i fucked it up now she is diffrent even goes as far as to cuss at my kids which she once loved.....i am in hell and have no way out what shold i do with this even tough she has become this i still want her to love me and be with me..............why did i let this happen

[🪦 WHATSINTHEBOX? ●]

no more hugging no more kissing no more sex no more masages no more cooking cleaning loving touching 2 wasted yaers i spent spending money time on what i was doing had no balance had no sense of what was going on right in front of my face i am so screwed up i am beside myself with hatred tired finding th lord but to guide me but i haven let go of the flesh

[🪦 Mutilated ●]

Why are you blaming yourself? She's the one who cheated on YOU. Instead of coming to YOU, she went behind your back and betrayed you. All she had to do was talk to you, about how she was feeling but she never gave you the chance to change. None of this is your fault dude.

[🪦 WHATSINTHEBOX? ●]

she did try to talk to me but i didnt listen thats why i am in this jacked up situation and hating life yes she did but it wa sbecause i wasnt making her feel like a woman needs to feel i fucked up so badly i never wanted my angel to fly

[🪦 WHATSINTHEBOX? ●]

i cannot let go of the past because it has brought me to this point in my life where nothing matters anymore not just because of her but because i have been fighting demons fo 37 years i was a shitty son a shitty older brother a shitty friend to the few i had i used to be a good dad until recently i was at one time a good botfriend husband son in law this has weakend me and put my health in jeapordy and my llife................

[🪦 Mutilated ●]

Why do you feel like you're a shitty all of the above? Enlighten us please.

[🪦 WHATSINTHEBOX? ●]

because i have not done my beast at anything for a long time i didnt keep my girl happy i didnt treat my mom or siter well i have not been there for my kids as i should i have and had my priorities all backwards i treated my first girlfriend like shit she wanted to have a family and i wanted to get fucked up and be a rockstar i treated my wife poorly even after she had 2 kids with me i commited adultry with my now soon to be ex girlfriend and i didnt give what she gave me and now i am so messed up i dont know how to fix anything i have alienated my self from my co workers because i can not stop thinking and talking about this girlfriend issue and i have let my job down and tht e people that depend on me i let my gorl controll me and i act as a battered wifw she has flipped a switch and has changed like i dnt know her anymore i dont know guys i am at my end witht his i dont know what to do i think my kids will beb etter off elswhere and feel like i am worth nothing anymore